Forgiveness ( The greatest bounty of all )

Searching for a trail that just never seems to exist 

As regret surrounds me like a morning mist 

Been on this quest in demand of an answer I can't find 

Hunting down forgiveness is consuming my time 

 

Been pursuing for so long I no longer have a home 

On these distant ranges is where I now roam

I knew this was one bounty I couldn't hunt down

An endless trail of dead ends is all I've found 

 

Cashing in this bounty I wonder if I ever will

Strangling my soul it's me in time it will kill 

A formidable enemy who wears an invisible face

Leaving behind not a clue nor a single trace 

 

Not finding forgiveness won't allow me to change 

Left to slowly die here in this bitter cold range 

Finding friendship with strangers along the way

Finding solace for awhile knowing I can never stay

 

I gaze upon these stars for a wish that might 

Somehow retract my wrongs back into rights 

To find forgiveness is a worthy cause for me indeed 

It may take my whole life to stop this internal bleed 

 

This bounty of forgiveness is a formidable foe 

To the ends of the globe is where I'll have to go 

Maybe forgiveness will find me on these dusty trails

Falling to my knees forgiving myself for my fails 

 

Chasing each clue where forgiveness might be found 

Through towns and cities even on hallowed ground 

Over mountainous peaks and virgin country side 

Ancient glaciers and distant prairies far and wide 

 

There's been more times I care to count that I've sinned 

Can't help myself throwing reckless caution to the wind

Galloping down life's highways so alone and lost

Lines I ain't too proud of, that I've had to cross

 

Shook hands with Luther once or twice

Losing my mentor I now just roll the dice 

Cursed the lord and all that he has ever done

Lost some battles that I probably should have won 

 

My addiction to find forgiveness may in the end 

Ruin me beyond all recognition is the foreseeable trend 

To trot against the grain is what builds character 

Knowing it can go the other way too, can embarrass ya 

 

I guess in time this plains drifter will discover this out 

Whether he played right the cards he was dealt 

I'll ride with intent to capture this bounty is the plan

Before the inevitable where I myself may run out of sand 

 

Perhaps it is forgiveness who hunts me down 

Swimming too deep in these rivers of regret I'll drown 

I wasn't present the day my mentor was engulfed in fire

I couldn't watch or have the strength that It would require

 

I walk these cobbled streets in search of redemption 

In desperate measure to change my reflection 

No matter how many good deeds I may serve

These voices in my sleep, I just can't curve 

 

Forgiveness is without a doubt life's greatest bounty

With horse and hat I chase like a Mountie 

Chasing for too long in these prairies I can't withdraw

The lines are blurred not sure who's the outlaw 

 

Watching sundowns from my prairies I feel I'm in prison 

Cursed myself and all those around me for why I'm livin

In truth I'm struggling to put the pieces back like most

Sometimes these ranges I dwell in I'm more like a ghost 

 

They say some things in life are best left to walk alone

I was one of a kind, that's why I'll always be on my own 

Thats never bothered me, but finding forgiveness 

As I hunt for this bounty it seems almost fictitious 

 

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Comments (16)

  1. macabre360

    I’ll be over here soon ww. I wouldn’t miss one of your epics for no ill wind. It would be a grave injustice to take it in under this gauzy fog I’m in. But indeed the wind seems to be pickin’ up just a little. There do be a stirring there within.

    April 20, 2017
    1. wonderwall79

      Arrr no rush me feathered friend I’ll be in the salon thoughts playing poker in the corner with a spare glass for ya if I have any whiskey left that is
      Fly high and fly safe
      Tipping me brim good sir

      April 21, 2017
  2. SEC

    Forgiveness not only releases one
    But releases two to go on
    For in the act you break the chains
    that tie you down in the pain
    Redemption comes as a gift
    to recover us when we drift

    April 20, 2017
    1. wonderwall79

      Very well said
      As I nod me head
      To a word smith of the highest degree
      From a weekend hacker like me

      April 21, 2017
      1. SEC

        modesty? wonder

        April 21, 2017
        1. wonderwall79

          well I am amongst some of the greats here on this site let’s say then I’m more than a dabbler

          April 22, 2017
          1. SEC

            okay we’ll run with that

            April 22, 2017
            1. wonderwall79

              April 24, 2017
  3. morningafter7

    It seems like some of us are destined to be on a constant search. Many times that involves going solo and feeling like a ghost. As far as the forgiveness you seek, wonderwall? You touched on that first step which is forgiving yourself. That and realizing that we do the best we can do which sometimes even involves doing something wrong, because it may have seemed right at the time. Okay – enough of MY rambling. Let me just say how much I enjoyed this and can even relate! And also that I hope you are saving all your poems for a future poetry book, if there’s not already one in the making!

    April 20, 2017
  4. wonderwall79

    Haha arrrr MA7 you humble an old cowpoke
    Indeed you are correct the first step is forgiving yourself and hopefully one day I can
    I’ll always have time to listen to your so called ramblings or rather great advice
    Yes I have some what got a book in the making of all my ramblings
    I hope you do too
    Tipping me hat in always the upmost respect

    April 21, 2017
  5. macabre360

    Well first off forgiveness I don’t believe is hidden. As it is that which to be given by whom it is held. Who decides whether or not it is forbidden. Therefore tis not forgiveness so much as it is the forgiver who must be found. More often than not they be as close as your own shadow you cast upon the ground.
    ~ ~ ~
    Again an artist you be in word, heart and soul. Another lone soldier in search of a goal shrouded in shadows of their own. An honor for this Bird to know and to have known throughout these wayward skies I have flown.

    April 21, 2017
  6. wonderwall79

    I stand with hat on heart and would just like to say that for as long as I’ve known such a noble bird, indeed I will be indebted all me days from your praise!!!
    These prairies don’t seem as cold when I know the eye in the sky is wingin by.!!
    With a tug of me brim I bid you adieu

    April 22, 2017
  7. tiggers

    Wow

    April 24, 2017
    1. wonderwall79

      Well howdy friend
      How are you
      Thank you very much
      I hope you are well my friend

      April 25, 2017
  8. dincali

    like Tig said..“WOW

    April 26, 2017
  9. wonderwall79

    Arrrrh your very kind, I tip me hat and say thank you for reading my ramblings!!
    A pleasure as always

    April 26, 2017